"Can I just be a parent to our children? "
Unexpected words which I easily get the meaning behind. Words I never thought I will be hearing in this lifetime.
Why is it so hard for you to bluntly blurt out that you just wanted to be FREE OF ME.. for our marriage to end.
When you're madly in love with someone, you likely never think about what it'd feel like to fall out of that love, but it can happen. It happen at the least you expected it.
Suddenly you remember the vows you have spoken to each other in front of God, the priests, your families and friends not just once but twice as we had renewed our vows.
"I, ___, take you, ___, for my lawful wife/husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health, until death do us part."
"I, ___, take you, ___, to be my husband/wife. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love and honor you all the days of my life."
And now you wonder, why it was easily forgotten by the man you have trusted and given everything you have when for you, it was all what you believe in.
All the promises you have made to each other, all the dreams you have dreamed together, all the goals that you have planned together, the life that you have made... from scratch... all suddenly becomes meaningless.
You questioned the memories you have shared for the past 22 years, were they real? were they just pretend? were his emotions true? was he miserable?
You begun to doubt yourself, why was i not enough? what did I not do? what could have i done? where did it go wrong? why i never see it coming? am i worth loving?
It was hard for me to imagine falling out of love because my love for you is always on fire, it is changing but only because it is growing, as our family grows it also grows a hundred folds.
As you spoke those unexpected words, it shocked me to my core but without batting an eye, I agreed to it. It was a blow, i didn't expect, I was stunned because I believe that our marriage was worth fighting for, when i was honest about how things could be better when I expected you to apologize and assure me that things will get better, instead you seek freedom from our marriage, freedom from ME.. Is it when the going gets tough, you leave me hanging?
But I cannot force someone to see what is in front of him, to see its value, to see its sacrifice.. so I need to build a wall.. and so I SET you FREE from your prison called Marriage.
"One day you will realize you lost a diamond while too busy collecting stones"-
Just another night of sleepless ramblings...
Unexpected words which I easily get the meaning behind. Words I never thought I will be hearing in this lifetime.
Why is it so hard for you to bluntly blurt out that you just wanted to be FREE OF ME.. for our marriage to end.
When you're madly in love with someone, you likely never think about what it'd feel like to fall out of that love, but it can happen. It happen at the least you expected it.
Suddenly you remember the vows you have spoken to each other in front of God, the priests, your families and friends not just once but twice as we had renewed our vows.
"I, ___, take you, ___, for my lawful wife/husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health, until death do us part."
"I, ___, take you, ___, to be my husband/wife. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love and honor you all the days of my life."
And now you wonder, why it was easily forgotten by the man you have trusted and given everything you have when for you, it was all what you believe in.
All the promises you have made to each other, all the dreams you have dreamed together, all the goals that you have planned together, the life that you have made... from scratch... all suddenly becomes meaningless.
You questioned the memories you have shared for the past 22 years, were they real? were they just pretend? were his emotions true? was he miserable?
You begun to doubt yourself, why was i not enough? what did I not do? what could have i done? where did it go wrong? why i never see it coming? am i worth loving?
It was hard for me to imagine falling out of love because my love for you is always on fire, it is changing but only because it is growing, as our family grows it also grows a hundred folds.
As you spoke those unexpected words, it shocked me to my core but without batting an eye, I agreed to it. It was a blow, i didn't expect, I was stunned because I believe that our marriage was worth fighting for, when i was honest about how things could be better when I expected you to apologize and assure me that things will get better, instead you seek freedom from our marriage, freedom from ME.. Is it when the going gets tough, you leave me hanging?
But I cannot force someone to see what is in front of him, to see its value, to see its sacrifice.. so I need to build a wall.. and so I SET you FREE from your prison called Marriage.
"One day you will realize you lost a diamond while too busy collecting stones"-
Just another night of sleepless ramblings...